Believe is what keeps me alive

Some ideas:

1. It is harder to choose thoughts than words. But it can be done. 

2. There are turquoise fires 

3. Green is the color of love

4. Purple is the color of my spirit

5. Anyone who believes in him/herself or who at least tries to, can be recognized as an spiritual being. This is like this: 

Belief in ourselves brings self love (you take care of you and whatever is your creation).

Self love is a sufficient reason to decide to live each day (if there is no belief or intention to believe, we could simply kill ourselves and decide to stop living). 

Therefore, when we believe in ourselves and have the desire to live, we are recognizing that there is a reason not to killing ourselves. 

The spiritual part comes in here like this: 

To stop living can be a logic and valid argument for many reasons. We do not choose this because we have some level or degree of belief in ourselves.

Therefore, not to stop living has nothing attached than hope (hope in ourselves). 

If hope is intrinsic to the spirit, then the fact that we are alive is a proof that we are spiritual beings.

The hard part here is to proof that hope is intrinsic to the spirit: 

I don't know how hope relates with spirit though. At this point, I simply put them in the same space: like hope comes from the spirit. But it can be that our physical reality entails hope and also entails non-physical desires and motivations. In that case recognizing that we keep living as a result of hope is not sufficient to recognize that we keep living because we are spiritual beings. 

Regardless that last part, I understand that I choose to live because I have some degree of believe in myself. The funny part is that for what I've seen I can say that in general (not always) people that are stronger, and that for some reason I feel that have a higher degree of self-love are people that are 'more attached' to live.

Now, I think that the complicated part is to find a balance: to be 'attached to life' (be the best you can) and at the same time not to be so 'attached to life' (be conscious that you as an individual are not important and as such nothing belongs to you).

There is no ONE balance. The balance is created every day. The complicated daily balance I refer to is to be conscious enough not to push too much and not to release too much. The balance of believing in yourself and at the same time recognizing what you cannot do. The balance of knowing your strength and knowing your own limits. The mental balance to choose thoughts that push you to build stronger links with life (those that push you to be more 'live-attached' -anything that makes you be a better human being) and to discard those that make you obsessive or trying too much (those that make you feel that you are better than others, or that make you think that you can do, bear or accomplish anything you want).

The turquoise fire, in the middle. Appears as if it has no limits, but it does. Appears as if it is standing, but it's not. A place that reminds me of how I am a believer 

Flames of the world

The voice of people

NY, December 2011

Your own

San Andrés, March 2012

The source of energy in our world

San Andrés, March 2012

Todo a su debido tiempo

Voilà, c'est le moment de faire. C'est le moment de commencer...

Disciplina mental para el orden, para no enredar las cosas. Paz interior. Nadie me Da paz. Nace de mí. Nadie es un "dispensador". Yo tampoco.

Tomar decisiones para sentirme creadora de mi realidad, porque yo soy la única dueña de mi vida. Hay actores alrededor, realidades que decido cómo me afectan. Y caminos que decido crear. No me gustó no tomar decisiones. Me parece que para mí es un desgaste no tomar decisiones. Me duele la cabeza, no duermo, me siento afanada, me hundo en un mundo mental. Cuando en vez, tomo decisiones parece que lo que se mueve a mi alrededor, lo que yo cambio, de alguna forma vuelve para retroalimentarme o para pedirme más energía. Cuando no tomo decisiones en cambio No hay retroalimentación, sólo un pedido constante de energía. En el primer caso existe la probabilidad de recibir energía. En el segundo en cambio esa probabilidad es casi cero. Así que en el segundo caso, cuando no tomo decisiones, toda mi energía la enfoco en un mundo no-físico, y el mundo físico, que sí espera por mi energía para cosas simples y cotidianas, no lo obtiene y entonces me siento aún más abrumada: me siento abrumada por el trabajo a medias que hice, por el mercado que no he hecho, por la conversación sin motivación con un colega, por la reunión a la que falté, por los papeles que no organicé. Tengo por un lado un mundo mental que no para y me demanda atención, y un mundo físico que no puedo atender y que me pide atención, y el pedido aumenta con el tiempo, se acumula de forma exponencial (es decir, la energía necesaria para atender aquello del mundo físico que he dejado ahí por varios días es mayor que la suma de la energía requerida para haberlo atendido cada día en su momento).  

Ser pragmática para limitar las vueltas de mi mente. Escuchar mi corazón para sentirme en paz conmigo, para ser leal a todo mi mundo, pues nace y muere en mí.

Today I understand that it is quite amazing to follow my heart. Truly, honestly, purely. Do all what it takes (which in fact can be do nothing at all) to be coherent, to act coherently with whatever I feel inside me. And that will bring the need of making decisions, acting, moving or staying. It is not about controlling an output -it is about taking the chances, those that are in line with myself. If, I make decisions with that faith, with certainty and peace, and I do all that I really can, there is no way things can end wrong. There is no bad move, there is no regret. There is just reality, one single with my spirit.